This week has, indeed, forced me to reflect upon a number of things. I sat in the car with my mom Tuesday afternoon, having left work early and joined her at Starbucks, and tears streaked my face.
I don’t know what to do with my life. I really really don’t. There were times, growing up, when I wanted to be this or that. A librarian, a professional tennis player, an artist or an author, a family court judge! But as time passed I never really found my heart leading me in these directions. I was always lost, in some ways. I’ve always been so unsure of myself that I let the voices of English professors, my mother, and my boss pave the way instead of listening to my best friend and my closest confidant at work.
They believe in me, but how far will that get me?
Your work is going to fill a large part of your life, and the only way to be truly satisfied is to do what you believe is great work. And the only way to do great work is to love what you do. If you haven’t found it yet, keep looking, and don’t settle. As with all matters of the heart, you’ll know when you find it.” – Steve Jobs
I want to open a store, but you need money to do that. I’d love to have my own column, but my body of work is lacking. I want to be an interior designer, but do I really want to go back to school? I’d love to have a home and a family, but I’m alone.
Where do I go from here?
Steve Jobs’ passing yesterday evening has caused me to reflect on a lot of things. The man was insightful. From his meager beginnings to his humbleness throughout his life, I feel like everyone could learn from him. And the most important thing to learn is life can be short. Grab on to the ones you love and don’t let them go. Never have regrets. Be a rebel, make a difference. Fight the fight. Find the ability to believe in yourself and to be “insanely great!” It may take time (it certainly is for me) but I truly do believe it can happen. I have faith.
Life is brief and then you die, you know? – Steve Jobs